I stand out as the accused,
"You are guilty!", my heart said to me.
"Are you guilty?", the judge asked me in front of the whole crowd. From my position I could see mum, dad, sisters, brothers, friends, where's he? I asked myself looking at the crowd.
I've been so good and all perfect until Titus walked into my
life, I'm this classic good girl with so much sauce but everyone knew I was that good girl
and wanted me for their sons, others wished I were their
daughter...
I dated Titus for reasons best known to me, for the money
actually, "Weren't you satisfied with the money your parents
gave you?", you know what...I was, but I felt Titus would
give me more, cause he was all comfortable and I wasn't
dating at that time... It isn't as if I've never dated, I have
dated but then I've never really had a man that I'll gladly
give myself to, allow to go deep into my heart... but Titus
did, how did he?
He wasn't the sweet boyfriend, he doesn't call me regularly,
he doesn't act all sweet, he claimed to be busy, busy, I was
the one doing all the calling, the messages, I felt obsessed
about this guy, if I'm at work, I thought of him, if I'm lonely,
"Titus", in tears "Titus", everything was just him, I was
obsessed by this guy, no one knew this actually, everyone
thought it was just me been me, quiet, spending time alone,
but twas more than that....
"I'm so sorry", he said to me the day we met, kissing me and
holding me close, I've missed him a lot, I forgave him
instantly, we had a good time together, all the kisses,
romance but not sex, I couldn't give him that, it was way too
much......"why not? I want to have sex with you...."
"I'm not ready for it", these were my lines, truth is I didn't
want to do it, I was keeping it for my husband.
"You have to be babe, I don't want to cheat on you...."
"aren't you doing that already?"
"I ain't, I swear it", he'll say and try to go inside of me but I
won't agree...."I can't, I'm sorry...this just feels totally
wrong, I want to do this with my husband on my wedding
day.... can't we wait till then?"
Titus would look at me, "It doesn't make any difference, if
we do it now.... we'll still get married..."
I actually didn't believe that, I usually gave myself the hope,
that he was the right one but I knew deep down in my heart
that Titus wasn't the guy for me, I returned home around to
nine, my mum wasn't vexed as she knew I wasn't the type
to go out but she called me that day and talked with me,
she wanted to know whom I'm going out with,
"you know you've never brought any guy to this house to
show me as your boyfriend"
"Mum....I don't have a boyfriend"
"Who is this person you're going to once a week...."
"A friend, nothing serious yet but if it turns out serious I'll
tell you...", I said and went to my room.
© Oshafunmi Omolola. (Shypopiee)
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