If only they knew said Ronke to her self, they see the luxurious car parked outside my beautiful green mansion, they envy me and wish to be like my me, my scars are covered with mak-up or scarfs that go round my neck . If only they knew how I wake up as early as 3am to cook fresh food and still get beaten if it's not ready by 3:30am. If only they knew that by hands, hidden in gloves are swollen and full of bruises. My story isn't the regular love story, I wasn't married to Nonso but I chose to leave with him as his wife. My parents consented to it even when they knew it was like dashing me out to a total stranger, all they wanted was my happiness. From the moment I stepped into Nonso's apartment my sorrow began, our sweet love became sour . I felt like a picked up can about to be recycled maybe thats what I really am, afterall there was no brideprice paid. I was stupid enough to think that moving into his house would hasten his marriage proposal but I was so wrong. I talked to M-J my friend about it and she advice me to leave the relationship since it wasn't as I expected if only I had listened to her maybe I won't be telling this story.
Four years after I moved into his house and my stay of enduring pains I decided to ask Nonso what plans he had for me . That was the worst day of my life , Nonso quietly went into the room like he had being waiting for that question all his life, packed my bags and told me his mother is bringing in his new wife he paid her dowry last week. I was dumbfounded, it's not possible! After four bad years of endurance you where just a liability was all Nonso so could say . Confused and bittered I rushed into the kitchen and got a knife "I cooked fresh food everyday, I was insulted for every little mistake, I was beaten for not keeping to time even after I didn't sleep well just to wake up on time , I refused so many suitors and even had to move in with you, you must be joking" she chuckled "it's either we die and get married in heaven or she dies" Nonso moved closer to her "drop that knife! As he tried collecting the knife from me blood splashed on my face I realized he had stop talking his lifeless body hugged me. "am sorry". I moved aside and saw his body fall to the ground I was so confused that I got a seat outside the house locked the door and waited for his mother and his new wife to arrive. As I sat outside the house looking at the gate all I could think of was his last words "am sorry".